The Times They Are A Changin'

Summer, for the past three years its consisted of pretty much the same thing; hanging out, random adventures, wasting time, band, vacations, you know, the usual summer stuff. This summer hasn't been much different, but it sure feels way different than any other one. It didn't hit me at Graduation, High School was over and we were all caught up in celebrating 4 years of hard work. It didn't hit me at Grad Nite that this night would be the last time I'd ever see people that I had shared the same "home" with for 4 years. Its crazy if you take the time to think about it. After going to my college orientation, I realized, this is where I'm going to spend the next 4 years of life. A new place, new people, starting completely fresh. It's like being a painter. 4 years ago you got a blank canvas, and each year you painted or added things youve done, things you've accomplished, and all your countless memories. Fast forward to now, and now someone says great, now start this one. Thanks Melinda Ching, when you mentioned this "canvas" thing during your speech at Grad it totally caught my attention. I'm bummed to see alot of friends go, 2 of my best friends are leaving in two and three days, and a ton of people are leaving really soon too. I really wish I could have kept some friendships more intact, I'm sorry for taking a few granted...

But life is life right? Well, I am really excited for college. Props to all the staffers and planners at SPOP, it has really made me excited to be an Anteater. At the same time though I am just as nervous as I am excited. What I'm most nervous about is just the whole academic part and really finding what I want to do in life. I've heard stories of people, who seemed destined to do one thing but end up doing another. People gifted in the field of science, who make calculating this or computing this seem like a piece of cake, but who are passionate about things like social issues, or art and music. I just need to find my own balance of being practical, what I'm passionate about and what I enjoy doing. I've heard it everywhere, balance is key.

Anyways, before I started writing I remembered a scene from the movie Watchmen to the song The Times They Are A Changin, and it could totally relate to how I see this current time in my life. Things are going to change alot in the next few months, weeks, days, part of it good part of it not so good, but they are all things I'm willing to accept and embrace.

Heres the link to that one portion of the movie. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2hNhM3dHB4

Again

So here it is, another blog about a song I like.

Esperanza Spalding. She's a talented bassist and singer, graduated from Berklee College of Music and was asked to be a professor after crazy huh! Anyways, shes a girl with real talent. Her song "Precious" is probably my favorite. Really deep song. Lots of things to ponder here, create new thoughts, but yeah well here are the video/lyrics.

Love me or leave me, but please don't decieve me

and say you'll love me how I am

You love the way I fit some ideal,

Not the real woman you've yet to understand

See, love ain't all heaven, and I am no angel

But I do the best I can

You always wanted something more from my body

And said you needed something more from my lovin'

But all you got was me and that's all that I can be,

I'm sorry if it let you down

Now it's no nice excuse, but all the magic was used up on trying to uphold

Some kind of tame, flattering persona that

Soon enough was getting real old

It takes more than pressure to change rock to diamond,

Now all you have is sand slipping through your fingers

You always wanted something more from my body,

And said you needed something more from my lovin'

But all you got was me and that's all that I can be,

I'm sorry if it let you down

But I'm not gonna sit around and waste my precious divine energy

Tryin' to explain and being ashamed of things you think are wrong with me

I'm not gonna sit around and waste my precious divine energy

Tryin' to explain and being ashamed of what you think is wrong with me

Set you up, you say I set you up

Like I was different than what I am offering you now

Let you down, you say I let you down

And drove your heart around

Did you forget about all the love & the acceptance that you promised me too?

So today, I had to go to UCI to take a test, and the only music playing was from the radio

almost all of it had no real value to it so annoying...

someone should invent something where you can access your iTunes library

from your car, how awesome would that be?

I notice alot of my blogs have to do with music, sorry if it gets annoying

to everyone (or no one) who reads this, enjoy anywayss