First One of the School Year

So senior year has started, and let me say...it has been amazing for the most part. Band camp went super well, all of my teachers are sick as hell (Calver Lafferty and Hizal ftw!), and it just feels good to be a senior. The only downfall to it, which i think is a pretty bad one too, is that i just hardly see everyone now. Everyone seems so busy, i miss a bunch of my friends, but i know that it'll get better.

anyways, i wanted to focus on this seminar we had in bandcamp with Dave Kuns. Dave Kuns is a band director/motivational speaker. he's been coming to Mt. Carmel for pretty much the past 16 years, and he has truly made a difference in my life. He's taught a lot of people so many things, and I think he's helped many people widen their perspective of things not just in band, but in life. One thing he said is that if you know you have to do it, you might as well want to do it. When you want to do something, youre so much more likely to succeed and have fun doing it. It ties in pretty well with the feeling of fear and excitement. He really made me realize, that the two feelings feel exactly the same, but the only thing different is your mindset. If you're scared to do something, you might as well be excited to do it. I remember being scared about so many things; auditions, performances, presentations, speeches, or even like talking to that cute girl haha. And i've realized everytime i turned got into the mindset of being excited rather than scared, the outcome has been better than what i had thought it would be. Everythings in the mind...mind games haha. he also made me realize just how fast time goes by, he went on saying how the seniors now will be putting on their uniforms for the last time soon, and doing everything for their last time soon. it just made me think like, im a ****ing senior. thats so ridiculous. it just amazes me. each day that goes by just means that theres one day less of highschool, forever. haha crazy.

well we're about into the first full week of school and its friday tomorow, i cant wait for the weekend. it feels good to be in school again, as weird as that may sound.

peace, love, one.